intangible_ryn’s ramblings.

 thanksgiving was boring as usual. i never liked that holiday. my dad and i saw The Mist today. it was okay. i had a migriane earlier but its going away so im trying to type up something. i sleep with the pugs now. they're great bed warmers. haha. now i'm watching Family Guy. i love this show.

i have no money right now. i'm going to make $15 last me til Friday as gas money. doesn't that sound like fun? there's a ladybug flying around my lamp. those things are hard to swat. i love the little drawing Sarah put on my chalk board. it makes me smile.

I've been putting my DJ into Word. I started it in 2005. I am so different now and I never want to be like that again. I can't believe I had friends. I wouldn't want to befriend me like that. Although I was pretty fake then. I'm a great actress. My true friends barely can tell between my real and fake smiles.  

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My mom was bugging me about Wintertainmemt earlier today. School hasn't even started yet and she's worried about the talent show. I have yet to try out these past two years. She thinks I'm scared when really I'm just lazy. That woman doesn't know my at all. Why the fuck would I be scared? I never get nervous about performing; I love it and I've been doing it since I could walk and talk. She's the one who always freaks out and gets all nervous. She needs to come to terms that I'm not like her at all. At least this year I have a voice teacher who can force my lazy ass to rehearse.

Two more years of Indiana. That's what I keep telling myslef. I don't even know if I'll be talking to these people in three or four years. You figure, I've been moving all my life. Letting go has become a little easier. (Except Ashlie, that will never be easy.)            Life, in general, will be easier now that I can drive.

My dad got me up at 8:20 this morning so I would play his level 70 hunter, Aughra, in Alterac Valley. It's a double honor weekend and he wants as much of it as possible I guess. I played for almost twelve hours. It wasn't really a waste of a day though...I had nothing better to do except maybe play my own characters.

Cassie said she going to do winterguard and then she's done. I don't know how she can last that long. I hope she can. She said Regina didn't even really let up and the whole skirmish. Something nasty is up that woman's ass..

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Lizzy is bugging me on aim now...guh...says she going to Warped. Ugh. On the up side Suzanne and Brendan will be there, and I haven't seen them in forever. 

Tara called me today about an hour after practice ended telling how her day went horribly with her being sick and what not. Most interesting to me was when she said Regina made Cassie cry and almost quit. That girl is like my little sister. I almost want to go the school tomorrow give Regina a piece of my mind and an extra helping of my fist. Cassie works so hard. All of Regina's nasty, sarcastic remarks just break her down, and she doesn't desreve it.

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On another note, I do not like these Imitrex shots. I don't mind needles, but why couldn't I find a pill that worked. Grr. My leg is sore around the injection spot. I can feel it when I walk or anything more physical. But I have to admit it does work when I have a migraine. The first of about ten medications to do so. Unfortunately not all my pain is migraines. The Imitrex won't make the headaches go away...like the one I have now.

.....so I'm going to go. 

So I quit guard yesterday. My friends said they wouldn't be mad at me, and if I stayed any longer I would punched my instructor, Regina, in the face. I loved telling her I was quiting. Her first words: you cant. Yes I can woman. Its a free country. She's a psychology major and every word that came out of mouth was completely predictable. There was an akward silence. She thought she'd won me over. "Well I'm going," I said. "Going to eat?" she questioned. "No, home" and I started to walk away. She grabbed my arm and took me to the band director, Mr. Taylor. I clearly explained to him how I was always sick and the problems I had

with Regina. Then I walked out.

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Mr. Taylor e-mailed saying she had to pay for the rest of the season. Bullshit. He cant force her to pay..and she isn't going to. Mom doesn't like conflict, but she'll fight her battles over the computer. eh.

 I got my WarpedTour ticket today. I, uh, hope I'm going with Sarah. Other people have told me they're going, but they aren't really people I can put up with all day. We can see some good bands and make fun of all the little sceney kids.

Speaking of good music: I'm also going (most likey) to see Ani Difranco on Sept 16 at the Murat. I'm ten times more excited about that. I saw her once before in 8th grade, but I attended with my ex-gf and it was quite akward.